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[Mar. 17th, 2007|01:21 pm] |
it sucks to start caring again.
ever since college has started
ive been living the life.. nothing but fun.
and when i said caring.. i mean for a boy..
here we go again.
those guys that drive me crazy.. the ones that
take you out, talk about your near furture together
and then never call you back.
yup thats become me in chick form.
for a while i liked it.
no waiting by the phone for them to call.
no making plans around them just to see them.
i felt dignified to know i had control.
i didnt want a relationship.
all i wanted was some company and a fun time.
now i found one i want to keep
and it looks like karmas gonna kick my ass.
and now ive begun to struggle to keep my "dignity.. always dignity"
fuuuccck. just an example of the crappy person im becoming.
i miss amanda and katherine.
my fellow peas in a pod.
come home. |
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| ahh crap. |
[Dec. 10th, 2006|12:39 pm] |
tomorrow would have been 1 year
since brett and i were together.
but i cut that 3 months short.
we started hanging out again, as besties.
because as i ended the relationship
that had nothing wrong with it i made him
promise thats what we were going to be.
and now i miss him more than ever.
it doesnt help that the 4 guys that
recently have visited my home have
been compared to brett by my parents,
but the sad thing is they dont compare.
im scared to tell him i miss him.
im scared to hear the truth that he might
not miss me. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 5th, 2006|07:49 pm] |
| [ | Feelin.. |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | momma im a big girl now | ] |
i cannot believe this is the last week of school.
i didnt go today.. how pathetic can i be. haha.
this week is going to be sooo stressful.
the finals. the homework. the rehearsals.
i cant wait for friday. our show for theater is going to be
awesome, i hope. im in a buttload of numbers and i have a feeling ill have a breakdown from all the hours of singing and dancing before it actually reaches friday.
but im way stoked about it.
i think im more excited for the last musical theater show
on friday more than graduation. i bet its because ever since
you enter high school you just sort of know youll graduate.
meh, whatever.
next.. im addicted to ebay.
like terribly.
i need to stop buying things.
i have prom number 2 saturday im excited.
party bus. oceanography center. teen people magazines gonna be there... damn all those rich kids from newport. anywhoo.
that is all. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 11th, 2006|09:18 pm] |
| [ | Feelin.. |
| |  pist | ] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | the beatles | ] |
I hate being grounded!!!!!!!!!
I miss my friends.
at least I get to see them at school.
im actually looking forward to school.. yuck.
this is the worst spring break ever.
I miss my boyyyyyy..
Im going crazy not seeing him.
I mean, really, look at this face:
haha, my baby.
ugh.
Im never going to get in trouble again.
hahaha thats a lie. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|12:19 am] |
tonight started awesome... and ended by absolutely terrible.
probably wont see anyone outside of school for about a month.
i cant hardly stand not seeing my boyfriend for a week..
but a month is going to be insane.
my parents have lost "all trust in me" yay. and
that means speing break is going to be amazing. NOT.
its no longer sarurday night.. and this weekend is a major bust. |
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| both reached for the gun |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|08:42 pm] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | michael buble | ] |
i must say that this past week consisted of
the most stress ive had this entire year.
rediculous hours of rehearsals.
tons of homework and tests.
annd the weekend went by so fast.
the show on friday was so FUN,
amazing friends showed up. AND i had my
solo which i loved bc i thrive on the pressure.
Saturday was an bleh performance but i had most
of my family there and my love so it was
all fine and dandy. i think its safe to say that
even if mr krahl is a complete ass, i will always
love this year in musical theater for the people
ive become close with and the great experience
this has been. The cast party was way fun saturday
after the show. it was nice having it at my house
even if there were some shady people showing
up out of the blue. brett stayed until he almost
fell asleep and admitted to me today he had a
really fun time with all the crazy theater kids
(even if the gayest guy there was checking him out
the entire night)
a side note: i cannot stop sneezing. its like someone is constantly tickling my nose with a feather and it is driving me absolutely crazy.
another side note: i hate school. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|06:54 pm] |
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hi my names amanda, im in love, and it feels good. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|12:04 am] |
last night was perfect.
minus the fact that i blacked out and woke up on the floor after a guy almost broke every bone in my left foot while acting like an ass on the dance floor. you may think im fucking around.. but im not. i blacked out came and came to on the floor. craziest feeling ive ever had. i guess i hit my face on a chair and now not only do i have a swollen foot but im getting a bruise on my face.
other than that, the dj sucked.
my group was awesome.
and im falling hard for this guy.
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 26th, 2006|08:00 pm] |
i hate school.
i hate school.
i hate school.
bring on the weekend
pleeeaaaasssseeee llorrrrdddd jessuss. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 21st, 2006|08:56 pm] |
just so you know:
having sex in pubic could get you arrested.
even if you WERE NOT having sex in public..
its your word over a cops who had been spying on you.
even worse.. this happened in the parking lot of your work.
even worse.. you happen to know the cop.
even worse.. the cop happens to be a boss of yours.
welcome to the most embarassing night of my life.
ill probably get fired because of it.
fuck. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|05:57 pm] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | the redwalls | ] |
i am not going to skip school.
i am not going to procrastinate.
i am actually going to try to study.
i am going to start exercising.
i am not going to not spend as much time on the damn internet.
i am going to start eating healthy food.. eventually.
yeah i decided to start my new years resolutions 'bout halfway through january.
school is gay.
musical theater revolves around favoritism.. not ability.
which is so fucking lame i want to scream.
my friends are most excellent as usual.
my boyfriend is absolutely amazingggg. <33
i could not be more excited for winter formal.
its going to be soooo fun.
and my dress is gorgeous so that helps too.
personal thanks to katherine powers for coming because i cant do dances w/o her.
im still broke.. which is bad.
yeeeah. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|11:41 am] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | ima robot | ] |
i had a sexy way to bring in the new year, and your jealous, |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|05:58 pm] |
| [ | Feelin.. |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | pink floyd | ] |
he makes me smile. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 11th, 2005|07:49 pm] |
its official, im no longer single.
♥ |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 10th, 2005|03:36 pm] |
i have tickets to spend a night having an eargasm with michael buble in las vegas.
i couldnt be happier.
thank god february isnt that far off. ♥ ♥ |
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| take me out tonight |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|03:33 pm] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | rent- take me or leave me | ] |
rent was amazing.
soundtrack- amazing. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 23rd, 2005|11:19 pm] |
you know when you find someone new
and they make you sigh a lot.
yeah, i found one.
♥ |
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| baby baby baby. |
[Nov. 20th, 2005|02:32 pm] |
| [ | Feelin.. |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | mrs robinson: simon and garfunkel | ] |
this weekend was amazing:
harry potter = love. it was soo damn good.
work sucked my butt yesterday morning 10 hr day.
chipotle.
Jocelyn and Sara.
beach-ish.
Brett ♥ and Packwood.
the "kinky i cant believe you
made this park for children you sick fuck," park.
house sitting.
bad santa and team america.
humping dog.
bath tub and shower.
weird shit.
humping dog.
unisex clothing.
whipped cream. |
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| lets party dustin hoffman |
[Nov. 16th, 2005|08:31 pm] |
| [ | Feelin.. |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | ros stewart - maggie may | ] |
well the past two weeks have been AMAZING.
The rolling stones concert was more than memorable.
it was historic, i just hated sitting next to a man
who without a doubt had the black lung:
the downside to the hollywood bowl.
my musical theater performance was so incredibly fun.
it was better than i had expected.
tons of people came and supported us.
i love every single person in mt class, well most people.
THE EAGLES. monday night
wow. wow. wow.
better than the rolling stones concert in my opinion.
and i love love love the stones.
but the eagles -
im still in awe. they sounded soo orgasmic.
total out of body experience.
yeahhh.
i cannot wait for this weekend.. ♥ ♥
baby, you KNOW. |
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| must i alwas be waiting on you |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|01:56 pm] |
| [ | Feelin.. |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | This is my JAM |
| | howie day- collide | ] |
Number of times I have been in love: 0
Number of times I have had my heart broken: 2
Number of hearts I have broken: a couple, maybe.
Number of boys I have kissed in my life: 8
Number of girls I have kissed: 0, gross me out.
Number of continents I have visited: 1
Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
Number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: 4
Number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with: we'll see.
Number of cd's that I own: a bazillion and a half
Number of piercings: 6
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: lots (sports)
Number of scars on my body: 2
Number of people that has made me scared of what they could do to me physically: im a whimp, people scare me easily.
Number of things in my past that I regret: more than id like to admit. |
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